Thursday, April 28, 2011
Countdown Begins!
It's almost May, and we'll be England bound in June!
*sigh*
No matter what I do, I just canNOT prepare myself for this move. It's really taking a toll on me. I'm having a hard time handling my emotions toward this move. I don't know why I can't be thrilled, like many of my friends have been when their husbands have been stationed overseas. The only reason I can think is that I never even wanted to leave my hometown, let alone the state of FL, or even the USA. Darn that love thing! This is probably the hardest thing I've ever had to do in my life. My preparation for it has completely sucked. I haven't gotten our passports done, and I haven't submitted our overseas screenings. It seems like every time I have attempted to do these things, there has been something that sets me back. I'm already emotional about this whole thing, so I get really upset when I try to take care of things and it can't get done for whatever reason at that time. So, I really feel as though I've given up. I have reached my weakest point.
My husband was supposed to be home at the end of March/beginning of April, but they have pushed his date back twice, and tried for a third time. Now when he gets home, we will have a limited amount of time to get all the things done that we need to. I just don't know. It's going to be so stressful, I think. His command's attitude has been "well you picked these orders", and it would be true, however, our options were England, Australia, and Japan..so..really..just because we picked to go overseas, doesn't mean we wanted to. England was our best choice.
I try to be positive, I really do. But, I have so many fears about this whole thing.
I woke up last night in the middle of the night(not the first time, and certainly not the last), freaking out about moving overseas. I just don't know how to handle it. And I'm terrified of planes, so that doesn't make matters any better. I don't know what to do. A part of me wants to go to England, but not for 3 years.
I just wish Cody could hurry up and get home so that maybe some of the stress that I currently have can reside, and I could muster up enough courage for whats next in our life.
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2 comments:
I can understand that Sweetie!! I lacked the motivation to get passports and screenings done when we were supposed to go to Japan with Brian. You gotta push yourself. Maybe set yourself some deadlines and write them on the calendar. ;) Keep your spirits up and just think how great an experience it will be for your family. And always remember that you do NOT want to be stuck here, while Cody's over there!! lol
Ah. You don't know the relief I get reading that you were also lacking motivation, as I am. I feel like no one understands, and it feels good to know someone who actually does. :)
You know I admire you for everything you have dealt with military wise. I don't know if I could handle it as you did. You are for sure a strong woman, no doubt.
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